I realize that it's been quite awhile since I last stepped into the world of blogging. I've been going through some personal issues and I will admit it, feeling sorry for myself. There have been times that I think there is noone that has problems worse than I do, or I think I really don't give a crap how well someone else is doing. To those people who I've thought that I about - you have my sincerist apologies; the fact of the matter is that I was jealous of those people. Jealous of the fact that they were doing so well and here I was one bad thing after another kept happening to me. Why me? I'd ask myself - when is it MY turn?
Luckily over the last week or so I've come to realize that I really need to get over myself. I love to watch the show Dancing With The Stars, but this season really affected me because of JR Martinez. Many of you know that he is an Iraq War vet who was burned over 50% of his body. Well he recovered and became an actor, motivational speaker and now DWTS champion. Sometimes I stop and think about him or the children at St Jude Children's Research Hospital and think OMG I am being SO petty! So I've had to deal with some medical issues - at least they didn't entail being burned over half my body or God forbid having to fight cancer.
My son said something to me tonight that REALLY pushed everything home for me. I was mixing dough with my new (to me) stand mixer that someone generously gave me and he said "Wow mom you have a really great life", it caught me off guard and I half laughed and said "Oh really what makes you say that?" his response? "Well you have this new mixer, you're a great baker, a good cook, and you have love" in that moment I realized that he was right. Do I wish I had more money so I didn't have to worry about bills? YES - who doesn't? Do I wish I had a perfect marriage to a great guy - sometimes. Do I wish that my house wasn't falling down around my ears? Of course Do I wish I could fit into a size 10? HELL YEAH. There are times I wish all these things, but in that instant I realized that I do have a pretty great life. I have people who love me, a roof over my head, food (sometimes too much) to eat, and clothes on my back. So this Thanksgiving I am going to be grateful for the life I have today - because there are people who aren't so lucky.
